Last weekend I photographed one of our 2014 ANP Senior Models and I couldn’t have had more fun! Kaelyn was up for anything and made my job very easy! Kaelyn goes to Sheldon High School and is the first of several Sheldon Models for ANP Seniors.
When I began photographing Brianna and Doug’s wedding I knew I wanted to blog it as soon as I could, but Brianna wanted to work on publishing the blog (as did I!), so I had to hold off on showing this beautiful couple on my blog for quite awhile. But I can blog it now since it has been published on 100 Layer Cake! Such an honor to be featured on a blog that showcases beautiful, creative weddings.
I remember speaking with Brianna on the phone for the first time and she was telling me about all of her ideas for her wedding, which were nothing short of fabulous! She is a digital designer and her creativity comes through in everything she does! Paul and I had a lot of fun documenting their wedding day and watching their families together. They have a truly close and loving family, and made us feel like family as well.
I couldn’t narrow down my images to showcase on my blog, so you will have to see this in 3 parts.
Preparations & Ceremony:
The Amazing Anastasia Ehlers created this absolutely stunning bouquet and the corsages and boutonnieres.
Brianna designed their very beautiful invitations. She has recently started a company featuring wedding invitations, which I will post about later!
I love the stamps that she chose for her invitations!
Brianna’s sweet Mom.
They had their guests stand in a circle rather than the traditional aisle seats. It gave a very intimate feel to their small ceremony.
I very rarely take my camera out to take pictures of our kids. Because photography is my job, and I only shoot in the most ideal lighting and composed situations, I don’t like just snapping a picture when everything isn’t ideal. I am very thankful for the iphone. I can get away with a dark picture by slapping a bunch of IG actions on it to correct any low light situations and it passes.
But I do still feel bad that I don’t take professional pictures with my good camera (ie not the iphone). So I am taking each kid out individually to capture the essence of who they are at this age, and I will commit to doing this at least every year, and hopefully every 6 months.
I took Isabella out last weekend. She really loves her little poodle, so she brought that with us, and I noticed her faded tattoo on her arm and almost had her scrub it off, but to her it’s still a tattoo and would make her sad that I had her scrub it off. So this is the essence of Isabella as an 8 year old.
I love capturing pictures where they look like the little kids that they still are.
I’m trying to get her to talk and get more expressions. I did the same thing that I do with other kids that I take pictures of by just asking questions. It sort of worked.
She wanted to run towards me.
This is the smile she gives when she is REALLY excited about something. It warms my heart.
Our attempt at a selfie.
And now to get sentimental. It seems like just yesterday that I held her as a tiny baby. How does this happen!?!? The days go by so slowly, but years go by quickly?! Okay, I’m done.
She got those beautiful blue eyes from her Daddy’s side of the family.
Ten years. I always thought this anniversary would have a lot of significance, like it would be the end of the grief, but I have come to realize that this is not what grief does.
Paul and I visited my Great-great Aunt Hazel when I was about 3 months along with our boys. We didn’t know what our hearts would bear in the coming months; we were just happy to be starting a family. I remember sitting on the couch across from my dear aunt with my hand on my tummy as she retold old stories about living on a farm in the south and raising children. One story she told was about losing her 3 month old baby girl. It had been close to 60 years and yet there my aunt sat, shoulders shaking as she wept.
I often think that I will be like my Aunt Hazel – and I’ve come to realize that this is okay.
The ten year anniversary felt like this would be the magic year that it wouldn’t hurt anymore. My chest wouldn’t get that heaviness when I thought about holding them for those short hours, seeing other twins wouldn’t make me miss them all over again, and I would no longer feel like something is missing from our family.
But maybe we are supposed to always feel these pains, and I think that is okay. We have to allow ourselves to know it’s okay to feel grief for our lifetime; the grief just changes. Paul told me something in those first days that I have kept with me. I told him through tears that it’s always going to hurt, and he said “yes, it will, but it’s not going to always be so fresh.” Our heart develops this beautiful scar that will always be there. I wouldn’t take it away for anything in the world if it meant not ever meeting our sweet boys.
Joshua Paul and Kaleb Stephen will always have that place in my heart with that beautiful scar; where I get to remember them in my arms as tiny babies, where I remember them when I see other twins, and when our family gathers around our Christmas tree and I feel – once again – we are missing part of our family. I get to remember them and this is the part of grief that I am thankful for. That if not for that beautiful scar, I wouldn’t remember my sweet, identical twin boys that I will one day hold again.
I wasn’t able to post pictures from our Holiday sessions last year because they were for Christmas cards and I wanted to make sure their pictures were a surprise for their family and friends. I had a lot of fun using some of my DIY props and signs from Slight Imperfections. They make beautiful signs and you can purchase them at their Etsy shop. You can also request a custom order as well.
All of these Holiday sessions were 20 minute sessions and included 10 digital files. These are perfect little sessions to get that Holiday picture and maybe a few extras. The total cost was $85. We only do these 20 minute sessions in the fall and our spots fill up quickly, so if you are all ready thinking about doing one, we will be having a day in September before the weather gets yucky.
If you are interested in a full family and/or maternity session, that session includes a 1 hour session and ownership of 50 high resolution images and the total cost is $250.